Today I attended the funeral for my dear knitting student. I’ve lost very few people in my life (I am lucky) and death has always been a hard one for me to grasp. I keep thinking, “She can’t really be gone. I don’t want it to be this way.” As if my will power alone will change the course of history. I think it’s the finality of death that is hard to grasp. There is nothing else in life that is so absolute. It also brings to light the fragility of life. In an instant everything can be different. Keeping that at the forefront of my mind would change the way I live my life.

Sitting in the memorial service, I was struck with a thought. I don’t know if I can say this without sounding like an ass, but why does it seem like the people we lose first are the last ones that should go? The very best are usually the ones we can’t hang onto. Life is so terribly unfair.

I do know one thing though, my life is better for knowing her. Tangle is better for knowing her. She was a wonderful person who could light up a room and I will miss her so much.

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9 Responses to “grips”

  1. Allisone

    I’m so sorry. It is never easy to lose a friend.

  2. Dawn

    I’m really sorry to hear about her death. I think you paid her a great tribute by acknowledging that you’re better for having known her. Hugs from MI.

  3. Merededeux

    I think that’s perhaps the best thing in life and death – making someone else’s life a little better.

  4. Heidi

    You answered your own question dear Allison. She made you a better person, just by knowing her. Her death, made you realize it. :) Sorry for your loss, may you and her family find comfort in the memory of her.

  5. merp

    Oh Allison, I’m so sorry. I hope you can find peace in knowing that she’s not suffering anymore.

    ~ and this to shall pass ~

  6. Leann

    Wow, it just seems like yesterday when I read she was sick. Death has been a familiar face lately, Johnny’s grandpa died Saturday and he had to drive to Altus for his funeral today. Death is hard to grasp, I don’t think I will ever completely come to terms with losing Grandad Forrest. Thank you for the kind comment on my blog. You are a wonderful cousin. ♥

  7. Jill

    Oh dear girl – big hugs! I too do not like the face of death. It does not scare me for myself but I feel fear about loosing those close to me. But really death is the ULTIMATE healing. And what an amazing life she is living now. So sorry !

  8. Carla

    I know to well how you feel after loosing one of my best friends ever-my mama, just a couple months ago and I must say that death is an enemy. It robs us of our time with these people we love. Yet at the same time with what Jesus did for us and heaven being real, death isn’t the end of the story.
    I have to remind myself of that quite often right now. And I think about where she is and what she must be doing and how I wouldn’t want her back on this earth, even if I could because I love her so much I want her where she is, with Jesus! hugs to ya, crc

  9. Lisa

    I know….all day I was in a fog…I just wanted to scream, “it’s not fair”. And you realize how amazing of a woman she was by all the people that attended. You and I were very blessed to have been some of the last people that she chose to spend time with. I’m honored.

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