growing up all at once
Eden got a cute, handwritten letter from her kindergarden teacher in the mail the other day. She starts school in two weeks. We’ve started to do a little shopping around for clothes and school accessories. Often times with kids clothes I have to be convinced that I like something before I buy it, so we need a few precursory trips to the mall before I’ve decided what we should purchase.
At first I was really excited for her to be going to school. Sometimes, corralling these two is hard on me, and I thought it would be so great to have some alone time with Honor. (I’ve always thought that was the odd thing about having a second, you’re never alone with them.) But as school time creeps up, I find that I’m starting to feel a little anxious about my baby leaving the house. I think she’s a little nervous about being away from me too.
And I keep wondering, have I taught her enough? Is she really ready to be all on her own? Is she going to starve without free access to the fridge all day? Maybe I’ve held onto the reins a little too tightly? I hope that she’s ready to be loving to her peers, to accept them for themselves and to not project her little beliefs onto them. I hope she’s strong and stands up for herself and those who can’t. I hope that her new friends won’t influence her in the wrong direction and I hope that she won’t influence her new friends in the wrong direction either.
Going to kindergarden sort of seems like growing up all at once, I just hope that we did this whole parenting thing right enough that she won’t fall on her face come growing up time.
Category: Eden 4 comments »
August 7th, 2007 at 6:21 pm
Easy for me to say … but I promise Eden won’t come home from her first day of school a 20 year old.
You’ve still got lots of years left with your baby girl. She will just have lots of cool stories to tell you each day.
August 8th, 2007 at 8:55 am
I CRIED when my oldest went out and got on the bus for his first day at school. When the third one went, I went back into the house, ran the tub, lit the candles and relaxed for THREE HOURS. haha. However, my second is going to high school this year and even that is a huge, lump in the throat milestone!
August 8th, 2007 at 8:55 am
I CRIED when my oldest went out and got on the bus for his first day at school. When the third one went, I went back into the house, ran the tub, lit the candles and relaxed for THREE HOURS. haha. However, my second is going to high school this year and even that is a huge, lump in the throat milestone!
August 8th, 2007 at 8:56 pm
You’re such a good mom! My oldest went off to kindergarten 29 years ago and like you, I was somewhat looking forward to the freedom- I thought he was so smart that surely they would promote him to 1st grade immediately and he would be gone all day. We have pictures of my second, Andrea, leaving for kindergarten, all smiles, 13 years ago. In two weeks she will leave, all smiles, for college. Her younger brother never did forgive her for abandoning him when she went to K. I wonder how he will survive these next two college years.