It’s been about a month now since Greg and Mia left for North Carolina. They were the Praise and Worship pastors at our church. In that time, Jim has filled in for them. Last week, we found out that our Pastor has pretty much decided on the person that would take over Greg’s position. Yesterday he led praise and worship and our pastor decided that he is the one.

It seems to me that this guy will be fine. Musically he seems really talented, his style is not quite what I’m used to but its fine. A year ago he was the p&w pastor at a very big church in our town. For reasons I do not know, he left that church and moved to Dallas. Now he’s back and tons of people from that other church are thrilled. Sunday at church, I felt that I was not at my own church. It’s funny how one person can change the tone of a whole church. People who had been silently going to church for months were cheering. It changed the tone of our church so much that I felt that I was at that other church. (Now that other church seems to be a great church, but I like my church. I don’t want to go to the other church. If I did, that’s where I would be.) I have no problem with people getting all into church, none at all. I just have a problem with people doing it because of a person. But, like Jim said, that makes the problem with the people in our church not with the guy.

I think the reason the whole thing is so upsetting to me is that we have gone to our church for a year and a half and I have yet to feel a sense of belonging there. We haven’t tried as hard as we could to fit in, although we have tried. It just seems like there is this impenetrable inner group. Feeling like I went to a totally different church last Sunday doesn’t help that feeling.

I just liked the way things were before Greg and Mia left. I wish they hadn’t. I’m really sad.